On My Own

I don't usually post up lyrics in my blog, but i guess there's a 1st for everything. For some unknown readon I've been feeling especially lonely since this afternoon and I still haven't been able to shake away the feeling. Longing, pathetic, needy, and most of all, vulnerable...a stark contrast to the person who went shopping for heavy duty wood glue & searching for a kickass red lipstick just hours earlier.
So here's the song, On My Own from the musical Les Miserables, this version sung by Lea Salonga...just so u know, i've never even seen it. I learned of the song during my musical theatre workshop a few years back.

On My Own - sung by Lea Salonga

And now I'm all alone again;

nowhere to go, noone to turn to

I did not want your money so I only did as I was told to

But now the night is near;

and I can make believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody else is sleeping

I think of him and then I'm happy with the company I'm keeping

The city goes to bed

and I can live inside my head

On my own,

pretending he's beside me

All alone, I walk with him till morning

Without him, I feel his arms around me

and when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me

In the rain

The pavement shines like silver

All the lights are misty in the river

In the darkness the trees are full of starlight

and all I see is him and me,

forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind

that I'm talking to myself and not to him

and although I know that he is blind,

Still I say there's a way for us

I love him

but when the night is over

He is gone; the river's just a river

Without him, the world around me changes

The trees are bare and everywhere the streets

are full of strangers

I love him

but everyday I'm learning

all my life...I've only been pretending

Without me, his world would go on turning

a world that's full of happiness that I have never known!

I love him,

I love him,

I love him,

but only on my own

And that is exactly how i feel tonight.